Rewriting Herstory

So, I'm trying to figure out people's intentions. Like, why people do what they do. I guess it has to do with the writer in me and needing to know what goes on in everyone's head.

I'm saying this because people are making decisions and doing things that I thought they would never do. But here they are, surprising the crap out of me.

People that I thought were my best friends...

But I do what I always do in times like this.

I push it back.

And to quote my friend, "Yeah, because that's healthy."

I'm sure you can hear him rolling his eyes.

But, it's how I deal.

It's just the fact that I can't understand, it's causing me so much grief...

I seriously feel like I'm getting sick over it.

I wouldn't be surprised...

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So, I was supposed to set two intentions... or something... for my weekend. Lockdown and focus. I have a horrible week coming ahead of me, and if I can make it through, then I'm home free.

Or at least as home free as I can be.

I talked to my professor today about how nervous I am about my future and everything...

I want to know why it's so easy for me to tell her the struggles that I'm going through, but I can't even fathom saying anything revealing to my mom and dad.

I guess I'm just so use to playing the role of the obedient daughter that I don't know what else to do.

Stress...

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I've been so stressed out and frustrated lately that it has brought me to the brink of tears multiple times lately. This class is one of my outlets.

I finally got to hang out with one of my friends that I haven't seen in awhile. Granted, I've been avoiding him, but honestly, he is one of my best outlets.

Telling him about all of my stress nearly brought me to tears again today...

Gosh, I'm so emotional.

But I honestly needed it...

I thank God for these amazing friends that he's surrounded me with.

And now I'm tired...

Good night

So, it's the beginning of the third week of school, and I feel like I'm already so far behind. I mean, for one class, I actually am because I am so dang lazy. I completely take the blame for that. 

It also doesn't help that I was sick last week, so I just feel like I'm trying to catch up. I didn't miss class or anything, I just... don't feel like I'm up to speed with everything else.

And so I'm coughing, but it isn't like a sick cough. It is mostly just dry. And it sucks because it I sleep a certain way, I end up coughing throughout the night.

I ended up waking up in the same position that I fell sleep in last night. Because of that, I woke up with a sore neck. I actually knew that was going to happen too because of a move I was doing for luau practice yesterday. I had to take a Tylenol to get through the pain.

I'm trying to figure out when having an opinion became something wrong. I don't think that makes sense.

I only say that because I'm on the internet a lot and I see one opinion about something, then usually I see a reply to said opinion from someone just shooting it down. They usually say that the person's opinion is wrong, then justifying it with facts?

This really doesn't make any sense at all.

Saying things like:
A: Oh, this is the best cover I've ever heard.
B: No it isn't. This person sings it so much better?

*ugh*

Does my frustration and anger make sense or am I just thinking way too much?

Cause for a smile:

I got to watch Surf Ninjas today. And there was a Supernatural marathon on TV. I love being entertained.

I had to dance an audition today for luau. I think that I did all right. Yay!!! I don't want to be cut. :(

I have another list of things to do.

Most of it has carried over from my previous lists.

I really need to clean!