Rewriting Herstory

So... I've realized that I've missed two days this month. I suck.

Yesterday wasn't that bad. I didn't do much. Crossed a lot of things off of my list of things to do. I have clean clothes because I finally got to do laundry. But I guess I had to because I had to pack.

Cause for a smile:

Today had to be the most hassleistic day ever. YES, I KNOW I TOTALLY MADE UP THAT WORD. But it was the only word I felt could describe my ordeal.

So, first of all, my friends and I were stuck in traffic on the way to the airport which made me think that I was going to be late. But then I got a phone call from the airlines saying that my flight was delayed. Point for me.

So, I get to the airport and check in all of my stuff. When I get to the gate, they say that I'm on standby. I have to wait until they board everyone to see if I can get on the flight. Point for airlines.

I don't get on my original flight, but I get reimbursed twice the amount of my fare because of it. Point for me.

They say that I'm going to get on a flight at 7 (my original flight was at 5). I get on a flight at 5:45. Point for me.

They were calling my name for awhile, but I didn't hear them, so I got a stern talking to. Point for them.

When I land in my Oakland, I missed my connecting flight to LA. Point for airlines.

I'm put on another standby list. Point for airlines.

I go to the gate and talk to the people. They give me a seat on the plane. Point for me.

And I'm ready to pass out!

BUT...

The end result?

I'm in California, with my family.

And considering all of the hassle and frustration, I was only an hour off schedule. 

I could not ask for more.

So, this is going to be an amazing Spring Break.

I just needed to get away from Oregon for a few days. Away from drama, away from the campus.

I am excited.

But this will be legendary.

And now I'm tired from my epic trip.

Good night.

But I do think that I'm getting sick because I haven't been getting enough sleep lately.

At least HELL WEEK is done!

Cause for a smile:

Stress level is down to 1.

Spring Break starts in a week.

LIP SYNC IS TOMORROW!

RUBBER DUCKS. RUBBER DUCKS. RUBBER DUCKS!

Cause for a smile:

I went to a lacrosse game today. Our girls won 15-10. I saw two of my really good friends score. It was exciting.

I also went to a baseball game today. We lost. But I got to see one of my friends get an RBI. As you can tell, I'm not really familiar with baseball terminology. I'm okay with looking like a total goof. 

I got eight hours of sleep last night, and today I felt as though I could conquer the world.

The whole lockdown situation hasn't actually been as effective as I thought it would be. But I do have a few more days. I just have to buckle down. 

I am actually tired right now, so I should be getting to sleep soon. But I have to proofread a story that I'm sending in that is due tomorrow, so I'm staying up a little while longer to do that. 

So, I found myself smiling a lot today. It's because I kept thinking about this guy that I was flirting with last night at the concert. He's a cutie. But I found out today that he was Catholic.

Now, it's not a determining factor in my relationships, but I just thought that it was funny that the last four guys that I've liked, I found out they were Catholic eventually. It's funny because in my first two years at college, I knew a whole one Catholic boy, and now I feel like there are so many.

But I should go.

I have stuff to do before I have to go to sleep.

HAPPY GIRLS DAY!

Cause for a smile:

I took a four hour nap.

This is really short because I'm hours late...

Yeah, I know...

I'm sorry. 

I'm trying to figure out if sleep is actually necessary.

I say this because I love taking naps. 

But I keep passing up on them, and I think that I'm functioning well enough without them...

Maybe I just love naps way too much.

But I don't think that's possible.

Cause for a smile:

I ate sushi today...

YUM!!!

I love HAMACHI!!!

I'm so excited that I had it that I'm salivating right now.

Which is bad, because I want to sleep.

I realized just now that I have a lot to do tomorrow.

I have to read a few more pages of The Scarlet Letter.

Then I have to type.

I'm ready.

But I need to finish a post lab first.

So I figure I should do that.

I know that I'm late at writing a response. Me and one of my good friends had a really long heart to heart since I haven't spoken to her since the summer time.

Today was a pretty simple day.

I guess that the only downside was that I got my test back that I took on Monday. I thought that I did well, but I was wrong. I guess that I just have to study harder next time. 

Cause for a smile:

One of my best friends from high school is actually sitting across from me right now. She is finally here to visit me during her spring break. I's fun seeing her and just having a friend from high school here with me.

My floor is pretty much clean. I vacuumed and my room is cleaner than it has been all semester.

Yay!!!

I'm marking off more things off of my list of things to do, and I'm not adding much.

It's the greatest feeling in the world to just cross things off. 

Actually, right now, I'm pretty tired because we drank.

I guess that I should sleep soon because we're waking up early tomorrow to go shopping, and I didn't take a nap today.

I'm going to sleep now...

Good night.

I've realized that I LOVE NAPS.

Like... sleeping in the middle of my day is probably my most favorite part of it. Okay, maybe not. But I feel so much better after I wake up from my nap. 

Apparently, there was a study done that shows that when you take a nap, the better you are at learning. Here is the article.

Naps Clear the Mind, Help You Learn.

I guess that my only problem is that I need to cut down my naps from three hours to about one and a half.

Yeah... I don't think that I am capable of doing that. 

I have to say though, my body is a little sore from dancing hula. But we're told that it's supposed to hurt, so I guess that it's all right. Right?

But today's hula practice was hilarious because me and a few of my friends kept cracking up for no reason. I feel like we were delirious or something. I don't know... But it felt good to laugh.

Cause for a smile:

So, I just realized that my friend who is coming up here for her spring break is actually coming in this Friday.

Holy Crap!!!

It totally snuck up on me.

I thought that I had another week.

Now I have to clean my house.

But that means I get to see one of my best friends. 

Yay!

I have so much to do tomorrow.

I think???

Maybe I'm just making it a lot more complicated then it actually is.

Well, I think that I should go and so something because I feel so energized right now.

Okay...

Good night!

 Okay...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY COUSIN EC, and MY FRIENDS, LM AND NG!

So, I didn't take a nap today because I decided that it would be a really good idea to drink some coffee to help me study for my test.

I had my first test of the semester.

I think that I did all right. I just wished that I studied a little more.

Cause for a smile:

So, for the past few days, I've been making a lot of decisions on impulse.

Today, the streak continued. I made another decision on impulse.

But here is my justification for it...

I talked to one of my best friends about it and she said that she thinks that it would make me really happy. 

But it took a lot of convincing.

I ended up asking her, multiple times, if I was going to regret it if I didn't do it. And she said that I would. I trusted her. Here is how the conversation sort of went.

Me: You know me well enough. Will I regret it if I don't do it?
Her: Yes.
Me: Are you sure?
Her: Yes.

This decision has taken me days to make. And it is a once in a lifetime opportunity.

So, I took it.

I don't want to live regretting not doing it.

I mean, not regretting my decisions is something I live by. It's how I got into college.

Forget regret, or life is yours to miss. - RENT

I also spoke to my cousin today and told him that I feel a lot more at ease and relaxed.

He said that lately he's been feeling the same way.

It's spreading.

This positive attitude thing...

It's great.

Who, or what, is the greatest love of your life? Is it a person? Is it a creative pursuit, involving music, writing, cooking, or art? Is it a passion, like food, film, or travel? How has it shaped your life?

That is the question that was on our Writer's Block for LJ. And I felt that it was a question that I wanted to answer.

I have to say that I have many loves of my life. First, my family. Because without them, I don't know what I'd do. They are my strength, my focus, my support. They are my everything. 

If it is a creative pursuit, I have to say that it's writing. Sometimes I feel like it's the only thing that is keeping me sane. I write every day. Sometimes it isn't a good thing because it easily becomes a distraction. But that has to mean something, right?

I think that both of these are my passions and they have helped to shape my life. I do everything for my family and with them in mind. Writing has shaped my life because I look at things differently to help my writing. Simple things like watching people, or noticing the small details helps. 

Community Stories:

I figured that I could start a small section for this class so it's easier for me to write about.

So, today, we had to choose goddesses or attributes of goddesses that we would like to embody.

So, first I looked in a book for my birthday and my goddess was Voluspa. She is an Icelandic goddess, I think. Her themes are:

Foresight, History, Perceptive, Divination, and Time.

But what intrigued me the most about her was her symbols. Her symbols were stories or storybooks. I really had to laugh at that a little.

Then I reached into a deck of cards that had goddesses on each one of them. The one that I chose was Selene. The first thing that I saw was this picture:
And honestly, my jaw dropped. I thought that this picture was gorgeous. So, I really like feathers and wings, and that was one of the first things that drew me to this picture. Then I flipped it over and this is what it said:

Selene, queen of the Starlit Heavens, is the the ancient Greek goddess of the moon. She carries the moon across the sky in a white chariot driven by winged horses or bulls. She is the totality of the moon, with its waxing into fullness and waning into darkness. Selene fell in love with a mortal, Endymion. When she descended to the earth to join Endymion, he fell into a deep sleep from which he never awoke. Selene continued to visit him nightly.

In later Greek mythology Selene represented the full moon, while Artemis represented the crescent or waxing moon and Hecate the waning and dark moon; hence Selene is Phoebe, meaning "bright, shining." She is traditionally represented with the crescent moon as a diadem. Selene represents the fullness of life, incorporating all phases of light and darkness in her shining.

I really took this goddess to heart. First, because I love the night. I feel more at calm at night than I do during the day. I focus a lot better at night. Most of my writing comes at night. My thoughts make sense, you know?

Then it said that she fell in love with a mortal. For a goddess to fall in love with a human... the love that she had to feel for him. I could relate, because I am like that. I fall deeply, and passionately.

Then it said that it mean bright and shining. And fullness of life and incorporating the phases of light and darkness with her. I love that because I am not always a happy person, but I try to be. I have been told often that I am always so full of life.

I have to believe that this card was fate.

Other qualities that I would want to embody for my goddess...

I said that I just needed a positive attitude and to work to better myself as a person. It helps because it is Lent and I'm working to become a better Christian and trying to bring myself closer to God. 

I have to say that I feel a lot better because of this attitude. I feel so much lighter.

I am at peace.

Cause for a smile:

I'm trying to take care of myself. I feel that if I can take care of myself, then I will be able to take care of other people better.

So, I finally got a nap today after two days of not napping. It was amazing.

I felt so refreshed after I woke up.

And now, since it's night... I feel like I can get something done.

Maybe I can mark off more things off of my list of things to day.

Yeah, I'll do that...

So, I didn't get much sleep last night. This is the second time this semester that it's happened. I'm trying to figure out why.

And I think it's because I was irritated, but mostly because I was overthinking something. The worst part is that it was so miniscule that it shouldn't have bothered me.

So, I figured that I should tell you.

So, the dance I'm teaching for the luau at our school has a cap of 40 dancers. I have around forty-eight dancers right now. So that means that I have to cut the remaining.

And I don't know what to do! I really don't like being mean like that. And it's understandable. If I could, I would keep all forty-eight, but it isn't possible space wise...

GRRR

It's all right though. I hope to figure it out.

And I've only had one official practice, so I have a week or two.

Today was the first day of the Winter Olympics.

I guess that it is overshadowed by the death of one of the lugers today. RIP. I'm glad that they had a few moments of silence to honor him.

What really got to me was that we're the same age...

At least he was able to accomplish something as great as making it to the Olympics.

Cause for a smile:

The opening ceremony to the Olympics was beautiful. 

I'm slowly getting over my sickness. I just have to pretty much get rid of all the mucus in me that isn't necessary for my survival.

Since I didn't get much sleep last night, I had a glorious nap. I woke up thinking that I had slept through the night. In reality, my nap was only three hours long...

But it was amazing.

And now I cans stay up and write and watch a movie...

YAY!