March 4th, 2010

[dauntperplexity]

So, I'm trying to figure out people's intentions. Like, why people do what they do. I guess it has to do with the writer in me and needing to know what goes on in everyone's head.

I'm saying this because people are making decisions and doing things that I thought they would never do. But here they are, surprising the crap out of me.

People that I thought were my best friends...

But I do what I always do in times like this.

I push it back.

And to quote my friend, "Yeah, because that's healthy."

I'm sure you can hear him rolling his eyes.

But, it's how I deal.

It's just the fact that I can't understand, it's causing me so much grief...

I seriously feel like I'm getting sick over it.

I wouldn't be surprised...

Community Stories:

So, I was supposed to set two intentions... or something... for my weekend. Lockdown and focus. I have a horrible week coming ahead of me, and if I can make it through, then I'm home free.

Or at least as home free as I can be.

I talked to my professor today about how nervous I am about my future and everything...

I want to know why it's so easy for me to tell her the struggles that I'm going through, but I can't even fathom saying anything revealing to my mom and dad.

I guess I'm just so use to playing the role of the obedient daughter that I don't know what else to do.

Stress...

Cause for a smile:

Community stories.

I've been so stressed out and frustrated lately that it has brought me to the brink of tears multiple times lately. This class is one of my outlets.

I finally got to hang out with one of my friends that I haven't seen in awhile. Granted, I've been avoiding him, but honestly, he is one of my best outlets.

Telling him about all of my stress nearly brought me to tears again today...

Gosh, I'm so emotional.

But I honestly needed it...

I thank God for these amazing friends that he's surrounded me with.

And now I'm tired...

Good night