Rewriting Herstory

So, it's the beginning of the third week of school, and I feel like I'm already so far behind. I mean, for one class, I actually am because I am so dang lazy. I completely take the blame for that. 

It also doesn't help that I was sick last week, so I just feel like I'm trying to catch up. I didn't miss class or anything, I just... don't feel like I'm up to speed with everything else.

And so I'm coughing, but it isn't like a sick cough. It is mostly just dry. And it sucks because it I sleep a certain way, I end up coughing throughout the night.

I ended up waking up in the same position that I fell sleep in last night. Because of that, I woke up with a sore neck. I actually knew that was going to happen too because of a move I was doing for luau practice yesterday. I had to take a Tylenol to get through the pain.

I'm trying to figure out when having an opinion became something wrong. I don't think that makes sense.

I only say that because I'm on the internet a lot and I see one opinion about something, then usually I see a reply to said opinion from someone just shooting it down. They usually say that the person's opinion is wrong, then justifying it with facts?

This really doesn't make any sense at all.

Saying things like:
A: Oh, this is the best cover I've ever heard.
B: No it isn't. This person sings it so much better?

*ugh*

Does my frustration and anger make sense or am I just thinking way too much?

Cause for a smile:

I got to watch Surf Ninjas today. And there was a Supernatural marathon on TV. I love being entertained.

I had to dance an audition today for luau. I think that I did all right. Yay!!! I don't want to be cut. :(

I have another list of things to do.

Most of it has carried over from my previous lists.

I really need to clean!

I love Sundays. I wake up every morning, get ready, then go to church. I love going to church because usually by the end of Mass, I feel refreshed and ready to take on the day. I was excited to go to Mass because it would've been the first time this year that I went to church since I've been back at school.

Usually.

It's a little hard to be excited when one of the kids sitting in front of you is crying because his dad is yelling at him and pulling his hair and ear in church. Yeah, what is this world coming to?

I really didn't know what to do, so I looked away. It's weird though, because back in Hawaii, it's normal to see parents discipline their children. I don't know why it affected me so much. I got angry, and in my head, I was thinking that if I ever saw this man, I would give him a piece of my mind. Horrible thoughts to be thinking at church.

After Mass, my friend and I, who I walked with, talked about it, and we were trying to figure out why it felt so wrong. We couldn't come up with a good enough reason. 

I got back to my dorm, changed into my pajamas, and slept. I'm still sick and seriously trying to get over it. I spent pretty much my entire day in pajamas. 

Cause for a smile:

I watched a movie today and got a good laugh. So good that I was in tears by the end of it. I also got to talk to my cousin who I haven't seen in six months. Also, I finally spoke to my friends who I didn't get to see over Winter break.

I also realized how amazing my little brother is. My parents are pretty much bribing my brother so he will get good grades in school so in exchange for straight A's, he will get anything he wants. Now, I know that he's capable of that, but that isn't why he's amazing. So, he asked me what I wanted.

I know...

I kept trying to tell him that he needs to get whatever he wanted and I'll just use it. But he wanted my opinion because he wanted to share it with me. Me and my brother are nine years apart.

Here is the entire text conversations:

Him: Mom said if i get straight a's i can get whatever i want or every a i get i mom will give of ten dollars
Me: That's good. Work hard.
Him: Ok so if i get straight a's i will try to get a psp to
Me: Nice.
Him: What do you want if i get all a's
Me: This is for you. Not for me.
Him: No its alright i want to share it
Me: Just whatever you want...
Him: Ok i will try to get a ps3 or are you getting it.
Me: Just get what you want. For yourself
Him: Ok i will just get you something as a gift ok
Me: Stop it. This is for you. Not for me.
Him: Ok

It really helped to counteract the anger that I felt earlier today.

It's moments like this where I think that there is hope for our generation. It made me believe that there is a lot of good in simple things in the world. And that what I told myself a long time ago is true.

My brother is going to change the world.

I guess that's enough for now. I need to get some sleep because my friend wants to make a movie and he wants me to write the script, but I'm to tired to think of anything. We'll see how that entire process will go.

But I'm tired and I have class tomorrow. 

Good night!!!