Rewriting Herstory

Cause for a smile:

I went to a lacrosse game today. Our girls won 15-10. I saw two of my really good friends score. It was exciting.

I also went to a baseball game today. We lost. But I got to see one of my friends get an RBI. As you can tell, I'm not really familiar with baseball terminology. I'm okay with looking like a total goof. 

I got eight hours of sleep last night, and today I felt as though I could conquer the world.

The whole lockdown situation hasn't actually been as effective as I thought it would be. But I do have a few more days. I just have to buckle down. 

I am actually tired right now, so I should be getting to sleep soon. But I have to proofread a story that I'm sending in that is due tomorrow, so I'm staying up a little while longer to do that. 

So, I found myself smiling a lot today. It's because I kept thinking about this guy that I was flirting with last night at the concert. He's a cutie. But I found out today that he was Catholic.

Now, it's not a determining factor in my relationships, but I just thought that it was funny that the last four guys that I've liked, I found out they were Catholic eventually. It's funny because in my first two years at college, I knew a whole one Catholic boy, and now I feel like there are so many.

But I should go.

I have stuff to do before I have to go to sleep.

 It's the first day of the New Year!!!

I have a lot to be thankful for and a lot to look forward to. I could possibly be graduating in the next year or so. I'm slowly figuring out what I want to do with my life. I'm figuring out that it's going to make me happy.

For once in my life, I'm being a little selfish, and I'm totally all right with that. You can't imagine the weight that is being lifted off of my shoulders because of it. 

So, how I rang in the New Year.

New Year's Eve was amazing. I got to spend time with my family drinking pina coladas and lighting up fireworks. A lot of fireworks. Every year, since I've been away at college, I'm the one who sets off the best fireworks. It's a great honor and worth all of the tiny burns from the sparks. I just loved being able to spend time with my family. It's worth all of the smoke inhalation and ears ringing when bombs went off. Good times. 

It's probably a good time to set some New Year's Resolutions.
1) Be happy
2) Don't sweat the small stuff
3) (Try to) Write everyday
4) Lose weight
5) Send something in to get published
6) Help someone

Which leads me to explain why I'm doing this. I mean, why I'm writing a journal online for anyone to see. 

I'm surrounded by women. My mom, my aunts, my cousins, my best friends. And what I notice is that we are so hard on ourselves sometimes. There is so much negativity surrounding and plaguing our thoughts. 'Oh, we're too fat' or 'Oh, we're not smart enough' or 'Oh, he'll never love me because I'm not pretty enough'.

I hear a lot of these things and a lot of the time, I can't do much about it by try to be positive. It's hard though because a lot of people can't see what's going on in my head. Yes, I have been through what everyone has gone through, but I've made it through. With the help of my friends. I just want to change the mindset of people from negative to positive.

I want good thoughts to be the first thing in your mind.

I want you to realize that there is good everywhere.

I want to make you laugh.

I want you to know that it's okay to cry.

I want you to know that you are not the only one that has gone through this.

I want you to know that I am here.

I'm not here to give advice. I'm just here for you to talk to. I'll listen. If you want to know what I'd do, I'll tell you. Maybe I've never been in the situations you've been in, but I can imagine what it would've been like for me to a certain extent. I just want to be a friend when you feel like you don't have anyone to talk to. 

Cause for a smile:

So, what I want to try is to write something that made me smile or happy in the day.

I got to ring in the New Year with my little brother, my mom, and my dad. Also my cousins, my grandma, my grandpa, my aunts, and my uncles.

Have a Happy New Year everyone!