Still not over it...
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dauntperplexityI'd put this entire thing under a cut, but LJ is still being ridiculous. So, I'll just put the spoilers under. Hopefully it turns out right...
Okay, honestly. There is something about the season premiere that I just can’t get over. The last five minutes of the episode. I don’t know what it is. I don’t know if I’m anxious or if the episode bothered me. I haven’t reacted this way to an episode since Hammer of the Gods. At least, I think that’s the last time this happened.
I’m scratching my head here trying to figure out what is going on.
I know it has to do with the last five minutes of the episode. And I’ve tried dissecting it to see what is affecting me so much.
Is it what Dean doesn’t say with his words, but by his eyes and actions?
Is it Cas’s apology?
Is it the lingering touches?
Is it because of how resolute everyone was in that scene?
Is it because Dean/Castiel made me remember why I fell in love with them in the first place?
Is it because it’s reminiscent of the first episode Cas was ever in?
=Bobby, Dean, and Cas in the barn?
=Bobby, Dean, and Cas in the lab?
*sigh*
This show. Hopefully it’s a sign of good things to come.
Besides that. Guess who has been in a writing mood? I’m so happy. It’s been awhile since writing something has come so easily to me. Word Documents are crowding my screen for the first time in what felt like months. I LOVE IT.
It may be awhile for something to be finished, and then having it sit for a few weeks. Then I can read it over and edit it.
I must get back to writing.
Hopefully it will help me get over my anxiety (if that’s the right word) about the premiere.
By the way, The Rapture is showing right now on TNT. This episode… I can’t watch this one without getting my heart torn out of my chest and the musical Stomp being played on it. Tears. Misha freaking Collins…
This is the randomness that is DauntPerplexity.
Okay, honestly. There is something about the season premiere that I just can’t get over. The last five minutes of the episode. I don’t know what it is. I don’t know if I’m anxious or if the episode bothered me. I haven’t reacted this way to an episode since Hammer of the Gods. At least, I think that’s the last time this happened.
I’m scratching my head here trying to figure out what is going on.
I know it has to do with the last five minutes of the episode. And I’ve tried dissecting it to see what is affecting me so much.
Is it what Dean doesn’t say with his words, but by his eyes and actions?
Is it Cas’s apology?
Is it the lingering touches?
Is it because of how resolute everyone was in that scene?
Is it because Dean/Castiel made me remember why I fell in love with them in the first place?
Is it because it’s reminiscent of the first episode Cas was ever in?
=Bobby, Dean, and Cas in the barn?
=Bobby, Dean, and Cas in the lab?
*sigh*
This show. Hopefully it’s a sign of good things to come.
Besides that. Guess who has been in a writing mood? I’m so happy. It’s been awhile since writing something has come so easily to me. Word Documents are crowding my screen for the first time in what felt like months. I LOVE IT.
It may be awhile for something to be finished, and then having it sit for a few weeks. Then I can read it over and edit it.
I must get back to writing.
Hopefully it will help me get over my anxiety (if that’s the right word) about the premiere.
By the way, The Rapture is showing right now on TNT. This episode… I can’t watch this one without getting my heart torn out of my chest and the musical Stomp being played on it. Tears. Misha freaking Collins…
This is the randomness that is DauntPerplexity.
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Date: 2011-09-29 12:01 am (UTC)Yayayay! You're writing again 8))) this is wonderful news. And I get you on The Rapture, it's one of those episodes I still can't sit through without pausing to avoid the inevitable :\.
But tell me more about your ~feelings~ about the premiere. Are you worried about Cas? Are you conflicted because you liked what happened but you don't want Cas gone? I've been seeing that around tumblr so maybe that's it?
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Date: 2011-09-29 03:53 am (UTC)Speaking of d_hearts_c, I have a story that I've written 20,000 words for from a prompt from it. I'm not sure if it's okay that I'm doing that. But just to have my fingers on a keyboard and writing something is amazing. It feels so unforced. Thanks for being excited about it. :D
I had to keep changing the channel throughout the episode. It's hard for me to sit through. It's soooooooo good.
I still don't know if I can describe it. I think I am more worried about how Dean and Sam are going to help Cas. If he is really 'dead', I'm sure he'll be back. I mean, he's come back from the dead so many times. Someone up there is watching for him.
I enjoyed the episode. I really did, and I do love Cas (and Misha), so I'm hoping that his appearances will be more meaningful when he shows up.
I think the last five minutes just took me on a rollercoaster ride of emotions. I think it's mostly because of Jensen and Misha's acting. Their ability to act with their eyes without saying a word. Everything about the scene was so subtle. I don't think the writer of the episode realized all of the ways the scene could have happened.
Like the way Dean said Cas's name when he came back to life. And Dean's eyes when Leviathan said Cas is dead. And Cas's desperation. And Bobby's happiness that Cas is alive.
Gah... I don't know. This probably doesn't make any sense at all. When I figure it out, I'll put it into words and post it. It may be awhile though.