This is my form of REDEMPTION. But not really

[dauntperplexity]

Theories, stories, and reality, OH MY!!!

Okay, so here is the deal…

I have been away for more than a month, and it sucked. I’ve been lurking, but haven’t been able to produce any writing until the past two or three weeks. It helps that there isn’t a new episode of Supernatural this weeks. Gives me a free Thursday night. This short hiatus is not as bad as I thought it would be. And now the thoughts flow

Okay, so my theories without to many spoilers. Actually, it’s more like what I wouldn’t mind seeing than a theory. But it’s all the same in my head.

1) John Winchester (JDM) is going to play God. More of a want then a theory. But here is my reasoning behind it. Dean is supposed to be Michael and Sam is supposed to be Lucifer. Lucifer and Michael are brothers. Who is their father? God. Who is Dean and Sam’s father? John. It makes sense, all right.

2) This one is definitely a want, but it would totally be cool if it happened. End of season 5, Dean says yes to Lucifer, Sam says yes to Michael. I don't really know how that would happen, though. Yeah, it might not be possible because of the demon blood, but it could be Sam’s form of redemption. But it was mentioned that angels can jump vessels between people who share blood. Siblings… Dean and Sam… This leads to Season 6 Castiel and Sam(Michael) trying to save Dean. But like I said before, definitely a want

3) I think that God was riding Castiel’s vessel for the first episode of the season. Why do I think this? Because he called Dean and Sam boys. When Zachariah left Castiel with Dean and Sam, Castiel relaxed a lot. Like, in his whole BA speech, he didn’t blink at all, but as soon and Zachariah flew away, he blinked a lot, like he wasn’t really sure what just happened. To me, his demeanor drastically changed. Castiel a BA fighter all of a sudden? And Zachariah scared of little Castiel? It probably isn’t true, but it’s something I came up with after I saw the episode. Actually I’m pretty sure I’ve already been disproven.

4) Lucifer brought Castiel back. When Raphael gave his speech to Castiel about Lucifer I yelled to my group of friends, “CALLED IT!” But apparently I didn’t tell them my theory before. But it makes sense. Lucifer is supposed to be sympathetic, he felt bad about Castiel dying. Read my story, it makes sense.

Okay, stories…

I find myself cursed to start a 1000 stories and finish three. It isn’t a good percentage. But oddly enough, I signed up for the deancastiel Fusion Challenge. Hey, when a prompt calls to you, you can’t really do much to ignore it. Believe me, I’ve tried.

But I’m writing AU #69 (I know, I know). Haha. Here is my prompt:

Dean, Sam and Castiel are in university. Castiel and Dean are best friends, and Sam knows that Dean wants to be so much more. But Castiel is in a relationship with another man and the Winchesters don’t know that it’s an abusive one. Feel free to bring in Sam/Jess! Castiel!whumpage galore!!!

So… there has to be whump, which I’m not sure if I can write with this prompt, but I tried. But more importantly… I slashed them. First time ever writing slash. And I’m terrified because I don’t know if I did it well.

…is terrified. Anyone want to read it ahead of time and tell me if it turned out all right???

Okay, story #2 that I’ve started/nearly finished. It’s about Castiel coming to Dean as he’s dying. I guess it’s supposed to be a little angsty. A lot of angsty. I can’t help it. I listened to a song, and the first thought that came to my head was these two and one of them dying. It just happened to be Castiel. So the song was on repeat while I wrote the story. Granted, there is now about 60 plays on the song, but my story is almost finished. Wooohooo! Maybe I’ll post it soon… Maybe.

Story #3, which I’m already 5 pages in. I guess I have to bring you into my mindset for an explanation to this story. So, in the episodes Free to Be you and Me and the The End, I thought that Raphael and Zachariah were going after Castiel. Like it was a serious fear for me. I thought that Zachariah was going to bring Castiel into the room and do something to him to make Dean say yes. And with Raphael, he said something about Zachariah not having the creativity or imagination that he does, or something like that. I thought that he was going after Castiel because he knew that he could do some damage to him. I thought that Dean was looking at Castiel because he thought the same thing I did. I didn't know about the trap either, which is okay.

So the story that I’m writing is Zachariah just trying to turn Dean and Castiel against each other. My whump-loving soul smiles as I write this story. I don’t know if it’s a good thing or not…

I’ve also started like 5 original stories, but those come and go, and I wouldn’t want to bore you with it.

Real life.

It blows.

College is sucking my soul dry. This is a surviving semester for me. In other words, if… big giant IF, I survive this semester, I’m graduating. Surviving is a lot harder than it seems. But I figured that if I survived a semester full of science classes, then zombies should be no problem, right?

I have to keep telling myself that because breakdowns just seem so much easier.

I went through like a random depression yesterday, which caught me off guard because I was so happy during the day. I mean, it’s happened before but like years ago. I think that it had to with me needing balance with everything I do. I guess that since I had just a happy day, I needed some sadness to counteract it, as horrible as that sounds.

Well, it’s either that, or something is wrong with my universe. And if it is, I’m scared, because nobody is telling me anything. GREAT!!!

But I’ve been listening to some Queen, Kings of Leon, and The Script. Plus yesterday the Phillies won and the Yankees lost. Yay!!!

I’ve finally been able to take a few breaths for some time to myself. And damn it feels good.

New episode of Glee tomorrow!!! …is ridiculously excited over it.

I think that I’ve spewed enough.

 

This is the randomness that is DauntPerplexity…

Comments

[queen125.livejournal.com]

1) John Winchester (JDM) is going to play God. More of a want then a theory. But here is my reasoning behind it. Dean is supposed to be Michael and Sam is supposed to be Lucifer. Lucifer and Michael are brothers. Who is their father? God. Who is Dean and Sam’s father? John. It makes sense, all right.

I've been wondering the same thing. I really want JDM back on the show, but he's been so busy. I think that would be a good twist.
I also thought, what if Dean says Yes before Lucifer can get to Sam. You know how he is.
Your third theory makes me wonder, now I need to go watch that episode again.
I love Kings of Leon song 'Use Somebody.' all-time favorite song now.