dauntperplexity | February 28th, 2010

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JW!

So, I'm completely tuckered out at this point in my day.

It doesn't help that I slept at 4 in the morning, then woke up at nine to walk to church. I ended up being about ten minutes late.

But being angry and frustrated throughout the day takes a lot of energy.

I'm trying to figure out the motivations behind people, because I need to. And right now, it's not making a lot of sense and it's frustrating...

I feel like everyone is going crazy and it's just to make me mad.

Or maybe I'm the crazy one. Who knows???

Cause for a smile:

We had Pacific Idol at school today, and I got to see my friend sing by herself in front of people at our school. That was exciting. The first and second place winners were people from my school.

So, today, I realized why my mom is one of my mom is one of my best friends.

This morning, as I was walking to church, I called my mom. I told her about how angry I was about something and I told her that I felt like I was being tested.

She laughed.

But I was so frustrated and I kept telling my mom, and trying to reason my way out of that anger.

Then she said out loud what I had been thinking in my head. And I smiled.

But I had to hang up with her because I was getting so riled up that I wanted to cry. So the rest of my walk to church, I stayed off the phone and tried to calm down.

I haven't been frustrated enough to want to cry in a long time.

I walked to church today, which I really enjoyed because I really needed to clear my head. And it was nice enough out...

But like I said in the beginning...

I'm too dang tired to function.

And this is totally helping so I don't have to go to bed angry.

I'm yawning as I write this...

I think it's sign.